Tuesday, November 22, 2005
10:40 PM

pissed!

$*&!%)*%!%)%^)@

Step 1: choose grp members.
Thot I could trust all of them and thot they had high calibre.

Step 2: Allocate tasks.
Y did I offer to do the consolidation in the first place, on top of my parts?
Well, ok... I've to say I'm in the best position to do that. All the editing and stuff. Cuz i'm the most meticulous of the lot.

Step 3: Consolidate.
Anyway, I wasn't supposed to vet the accuracy, but I still ended up doing that. I was only supposed to standardise the format, vet and language and style.

Step 4: Reflected the changes that shud be made, plus comments and suggestions.

Step 5: bounced back. BAD BAD quality.

Repeat Step 4 and 5 three times.
Everytime the part is sent back, I still find it unssatisfactory.

Step 6: Edit format.
Dunno y ended up editing format, language, grammar, style, summarising skills, and last but not least, ACCURACY! I relli wasn't supposed to be the one vetting accuracy. I really trusted that all the stuff shud be quite gd, and that I shudn't worry too much. Guess wad, I only looked thru 1 section, keyed in the values in the calculator... And I realised values are wrong! Look thru, realised this section, the next section and the next sections have A LOT of problems! Vetting took longer than doing my part. Sigh. Y like that? If u wan me to trust u, u gotta show that u can be trusted u noe! But now i dun trust him.

It's not entirely the prob with his attitude, i tink. It's juz his working style. Intelligence perhaps? Like, com'on. How can anyone produce that sort of crap?! Urgh. Wadeva... And he's quite stubborn too.

Okay, I've nv been so pissed b4. I always thot of myself as rather kind and gd-natured with pple. At the most, I'll bitch abt the person with other frens. But this time, SIGH... One thing he said literally made blood rush to my head. (this is not a metaphor... It relli happened!)

$*(&%)@#%&. Trying to keep my blog clean by avoiding vulgarities. Replacing them with symbols instead. I'm nv gonna work with him again. Members like this are hard to come by manz... Pek cek!

Thursday, November 17, 2005
9:28 PM

she pined

With anticipation,
She pined,
And weeped.
Then the wave
Brought bad,
Discouraging news.

Was she to cry,
Or to smile?
To console,
Or to complain?

She smiled,
And she smiled.
She weeped,
And she pined,
Beneath that smile.

Empathised,
And understood.
Unsaid,
But understood.
Somehow,
Like perpetuity
It seemed,
She pined.

The wind blew.
The trees swayed.
She stood
Against the wind,
Like a buffer
So natural,
And she pined.

Through the heart
She looked,
And she found.
Patiently,
She pined.

8:24 PM

:sch so far:

End of lessons for the term. Next week will be study break, and then 2 exams the following week.

Wad do i like abt school life so far?

School is just 40 min bus-ride in the morning traffic.

Lessons are well spaced-out. Imagine, this term I only had 3-day week and 4 lessons a week, 1 for each module.

The profs (most of them) are charismatic, approachable and dedicated. Usually, they rmb my name, as well as some other classmates, and the prof-student interaction is very warm and personal.

The chance to perform. In just the first term, I had 8 presentations, 3 reports, 5 tests and numerous assignments. Stress aside, these definitely pushed me to work hard and learn more during lessons. Moreover, surrounded by ambitious and diligent accountants-to-be, and pressured by the obligation to do well to maintain my scholarship, the competitive environment motivates me to want to achieve more.

Conducive envt to study. Forget shopping... Wondered if I'd become a shopaholic b4 I came. I hardly step out of sch for food or shopping. The library rocks! There'r so many places in the library and study rooms in the school to mug.

Good-looking pple ard - potential eyecandies. muahaha... Mostly gals I'd say.. This works both ways. Can be stressful in order not to be plain-looking (this one is hard man), and to dress well (it's inevitable to wear the wrong combination in a rush to go to sch u noe). But, well, it's nice to have nice legs and pretty faces to look at sometimes. Hmmm... Dun expect too much from the guys, but at least they'r presentable. I'm serious abt this manz... At least they've pretty good dress sense, style their hair, and some of them got good bods... Muahaha...
Hmmm, the reason I put this as a pt i like abt sch is that I can't tink of anything else. You see, looks dun relli matter that much to me. So i'm juz crapping...

Wad do I dislike abt sch?

Gosh! So muggish! imagine the study rooms fully booked, regardless of whether it's a weekday or weekend... Kinda miss the times in jc when i could juz slp thru lessons (and sometimes salivate on my notes), leave tutorials till pre-blk test periods, hand up work late, and cram everything to the last... Tutorials and test results did not seem to matter that much at that time. Now everything counts towards ur final results! The emphasis on all-rounded education forces me to have to try to do well for everything - presentations, reports, project work, tests, assignments, class participation and exams. I dun tink there's an easy way out babe.

Different faces in different lessons. I'm somewhat the anomaly in the classes. My FA and Comms grp seems to be made up of the same classmates, but i dun share the same stats and LTB class with them since I'm exempted from stats, and I'm posted to a different LTB class. In AIS, I'm one of the few year 1s. The rest are made up of year 2s n older. Every time after lessons, I'll try to hang out with them for lunch. After that, we'll have our various schedules (usually I'll be the anomaly again), and we'll part our ways. Nv had to walk ard school alone in pri, sec and jc. well... dun relli like such a life... But hey! Now I'm relli used to it. Sometimes I feel that i'd rather be alone, so i can get things done quicker... Of cuz, i've to say I've changed a bit (inwardly)... Used to be super sampat, crazy and un-image conscious, but the new environment make me a little more cautious and kinda forces me to be more mellow and serious. But I juz need a little trigger to induce that madness in me. *winks

School term is so short. Having to manage 4 mods in such a short term, I have to be constantly on my toes. I hardly have time to work out. Okok, I noe it's an excuse... I'm juz lazy... Hehez.. I only work out like once or twice a week for very short periods which explains y i have a tummy now.. Boohoo...

Projects, projects and more projects! Ok... This term is supposed to be the slackest in the 4 years of my sch life, unless I go on exchange. Even so, I have meetings 3 times a week on average, 3 hours each time on average. Meeting periods range from 1 to 7 hours.

Do I regret my choice?

I dun tink so. Though it the cons seem to outweigh the pros, I'm glad to have made this choice. Being in such a different envt has been an eye-opener. I'm quite receptive to changes, adaptable and willing to learn from others. Now I welcome and accept differences in other pple, and try to gossip less abt other pple (but hey, I still like to gossip). By stepping out of the comfort zone to see more, I feel more prepared for wad lies ahead. I believe I need more time to adjust to the envt for me to totally enjoy this new life.

Thursday, November 10, 2005
11:56 PM

.my birthdate. .my name.

inspired by dearest tze to do this. dun quite understand everything. analysis of my name is only partly true. muahaha...

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You entered: 7/29/1986
Your date of conception was on or about 5 November 1985.

You were born on a Tuesday
under the astrological sign Leo.
Your Life path number is 6.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2446640.5.
The golden number for 1986 is 11.
The epact number for 1986 is 19.
The year 1986 was not a leap year.

As of 11/10/2005 10:55:22 AM EST
You are 19 years old.
You are 232 months old.
You are 1,006 weeks old.
You are 7,044 days old.
You are 169,066 hours old.
You are 10,144,015 minutes old.
You are 608,640,922 seconds old.
You are 2.75694716242661 dog years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

There are 261 days till your next birthday (so long?) on which your cake will have 20 candles

Those 20 candles produce 20 BTUs,
or 5,040 calories of heat (that's only 5.0400 food Calories!) .
You can boil 2.29 US ounces of water with that many candles. (wadeva)

In 1986 there were approximately 3.7 million births in the US.
In 1986 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.
In 1986 in the US there were 2,400,000 marriages (10%) and 1,159,000 divorces (4.8%)
In 1986 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)

Your birthstone is Ruby
The Mystical properties of Ruby
Ruby is said to open one's heart to love.
Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Carnelian

Your birth tree is
Cypress, the Faithfulness
Strong, muscular (used to be, now flabs only), adaptable, takes what life has to give, happy,content,optimistic, needs enough money and acknowledgment, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered,unruly, pedantic and careless. i'd tink all these are quite true

There are 45 days till Christmas 2005!

The moon's phase on the day you were born was in its last quarter.

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There are 9 letters in your name.
Those 9 letters total to 44
There are 4 vowels and 5 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 8

The characteristics of #8 are: Practical endeavors, status oriented, power-seeking, high-material goals.
I shall highlight those qualities that I believe are quite true.
The expression or destiny for #8:
Your Expression is represented by the number 8. The 8 Expression is well-equipped in a managerial sense. You have outstanding organizational and administrative capabilities. You have the potential for considerable achievement in business or other powerful positions. You can expect to receive the financial and material rewards. You have the skill and abilities to establish or operate a business with great efficiency. You have good judgment when it comes to money and commercial matters, and you understand how to build and accumulate material wealth. Much of your success (or lack of it) may come due to your ability (or inability) to judge character. With the number 8 Expression, you exercise sound judgment in most of your affairs; you are realistic and practical in your approach to business matters.

The positive 8 Expression produces individuals that are very ambitious and goal-oriented. If the 8 energy is not in excess in your makeup, you will no doubt express these traits to some extent. No one has any more energy that a person with the 8 Expression who has a plan laid and is starting to work. No one has any more self-confidence, either. If you are expressing the positive qualities of 8, you are an outstanding manager because you can plan, initiate, and complete projects; you are very dependable and determined.

As it always happens, there can be too much of a good thing. If you have too much of the 8 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes. A negative 8 can be very rigid and stubborn. Ambition sometimes has a way of becoming over-ambition, and you may express an unreasonable impatience with the lack of progress. If your negative side is showing, you may be too exacting, both of yourself and of others. Sometimes this can even becomes a case of intolerance.

The number 8 is very materialistic and also very desirous (wahliew, not to this extent la) of status and power. Neither of these drives are inherently negative unless they are taken to an extreme. You must avoid the tendency to strain after money, material matters, status, or power, to the detriment of the other important factors in your life.

Your Soul Urge number is: 9
dun tink this section is true lehz
A Soul Urge number of 9 means:
With a 9 Soul Urge, you want to give to others, usually in a humanitarian or philanthropic manner. You are highly motivated to give friendship, affection and love. And you are generous in giving of your knowledge and experience. You have very sharing urges, and you are likely to have a great deal to share. Your concern for others makes you a very sympathetic and generous person with a sensitive and compassionate nature.

You are able to view life in very broad and intuitive terms. You often express high ideals and an inspirational approach to life. If you are able to fully realize the potential of your motivation, you will be a very self-sacrificing person who is able to give freely without being concerned about any return or reward.

As with all human beings, you are prone to sometimes express the negative attitudes inherent to your Soul Urges. You may become too sensitive and tend to express emotions strongly at times. There can be significant conflict between higher aims and personal ambitions. You may resent the idea of giving all of the time and, in fact, if there is too much 9 energy in your nature you may reject the idea. You may often be disappointed in the lack of perfection in yourself and others.

Your Inner Dream number is: 8

An Inner Dream number of 8 means:
You dream of success in the business or political world, of power and control of large material endeavors. You crave authority and recognition of executive skills. Your secret self may have very strong desire to become an entrepreneur.

Sunday, November 06, 2005
7:28 PM

how can it be?

how can there be such a person in this world?

doesn't do her work.

snatches away wad u reaped.

leeches on u.

never reflects.

unguiltily.

thinks she's never wrong.

likes to put the blame on others.

never her fault.

find faults with others.

so...

inconsiderate.

lazy.

fat.

ignorant.

i'm juz so disappointed...

why muz she be like this?

how can there be such a person?

how can it be?

Thursday, November 03, 2005
8:32 PM

a little lonely.
not depressed.
not overjoyed.
just numb.
pH 7
neutral.
- optimistic thoughts

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unbearable wait...
6 days more...

gotta last thru this...
6 days to endure...