Thursday, March 30, 2006
12:44 AM

plans

My little reminders:

juz had the BGS final presentation today. There were both good and bad comments. I suppose we did not bad. Our hypothesis had loads of potential I felt, just that we were a little lost on the further refinements and development. Need to pia a little more, do the touch-ups and den hand up report on the first day of exam week. Well.. I have faith in my group... n i hope we wun disappoint ourselves. :)

had training oso. Din felt I had a good run. Quite bad in fact, despite the fact that I train a little on my own as well. Tink I shud run longer dist, and train the "long-dist muscle" so dun feel the fatigue so easily. dun like to be lagging, and dun want to impose on others on the real trek oso.

4 exams coming, but still no motivation to start studying. I nd JZ to be ard to push me. (ok, that's an excuse) anyway study week got 4 hrs of make-up lesson for Biz Law. Ridiculous. Got Creative Thinking installation art as well, which I hope I'll enjoy, and of cuz do well!

Sunday, March 26, 2006
7:06 PM

mean-ness

getting a little short-tempered recently. can't exactly pin-point y too, cuz this isn't the most stressful week. but juz beware: I bite!

But then, despite the short temper that's getting onto me, I realise it's not easy to be mean, and express your anger appropriately. Y can't I be a meaner gal?!

Anyway, there's this topic abt GPA today. Since when was GPA ruling my life? It never was! But, it's still impt, cuz I owe it to other pple, so I've got to be responsible to others, not just to myself.

Sch isn't supposed to suck, like wad mamachan said. I like learning. (I really do, not being sarcastic) It's just that sometimes, some things are really a drag, and wad u want is not as easy to get as what u want it to be. Come to tink of it, I still like school.

i pray that everything goes on well this week.

Saturday, March 18, 2006
10:15 PM

kakis

we'r the
drinking kakis - we dun drink a lot
bridge kakis - we'r not really pro at it
K-ing kakis - not like we K a lot
mahjong kakis - we don't play with $
chatting kakis - increasingly of taboo topics
camping kakis - we dig out each others' deepest, darkest secrets

love u all! muacks!

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YL 06
My impression is that 31st is doing pretty well so far, despite being such a small group. It's juz kinda sad that they didn't have the exposure to outdoor activities that we had. We were lucky to have more funds b4 IP at that time, and VERY smart pple in 29th, so din need to mug for BTs, and of pple who had passion, LOTS of that.

There's still the discipline aspects of YL in the camp, though much reduced every subsequent year. 32nd batch and in fact the whole of J1 are predominantly Chinese High guys! All becuz of IP. Now i'm glad I graduated 3 years earlier.

Mr Lock still remembers me, and my heart. haha...
I wonder wad will I become if I hadn't joined YL that time.

10:06 PM

u make my heart melt

haven't heard from u since u boarded the plane.

Saturday, March 11, 2006
6:34 PM

the headache season

the headache season has not been ard for some time. recently, i've been having headaches on and off, like 4-5 times a week. The feeling of the throbbing blood vessels in your eyes, brain and neck is simply unbearable, and makes me feel like puking.

it's been making me feeling unwell recently, but is worsened by sch. I have to admit that I've been lucky to be taking 6 modules as relaxed as taking 4 mods, with blaw and finance being half-mods each. But, of cuz, it's not for nothing, I'll have to pia for my 4 papers at the end of the term. But now I'm so worried whether I can maintain my GPA, which hasn't been very satisfactory, but considered good enuf. And my number 1 worry has to be BGS. Dunno wad to say abt it. Perhaps, I shall bitch abt BGS after I complete my mods. I have A LOT to say. I shall juz make the best out of it first. I'm really being very optimistic. Research paper is due soon, paper's abstract due this friday, presentation either next or next next week. Nothing has been done - our hypotheses sux, our proposals were on the pass-fail line, zero data has been collected and nothing has been done to collect data. Somehow feel quite demoralised and want to give it up. There's just not enuf guidance and time to do. If we have a textbook, 2 booklets and other books from the lib to read for readings, how much time do I then have left each week to do the proj? I can't spend just 2 hours reading and understanding Harvard Business Cases, PhD's reports and research papers every week. To do all that, I'll probably need >4 hours.

Though I've been complaining abt trainings that clash with meetings, I seem glad to have these trainings to "escape" from work for a couple of hours each week, though all that running 7km, exercises and 'staircase to heaven' leaves me with yet less time to do BGS and other stuff. But, anyway, even with a little more time to do BGS, we still have no idea wad to do. But I really dun want a C for my BGS (the research paper is 30%!). Nono, no way...

Nowadays I can't seem to cry in front of myself. I need a shoulder to lean on.

Sunday, March 05, 2006
12:03 AM

challenge?

"I want to challenge myself."

Cliched it may sound, but it's been quite a long time since I told myself that. I used to tell myself that very frequently, since the end of sec 3... The after-JC life is definitely much more hygienic and much less rugged. Gone were the days when u'll nv get to bathe in camps. Gone were the days when i bashed the Ubin forest with a blunt parang, and ended up with lotsa scratches on my legs. Now, more of the cold, hard buildings.

Recently, i came across this cliche again and it suddenly struck me.

Yes, I finally can tell this to myself again. It's been a long time since I felt such strong motivation, though still not as strong as THOSE times yet...

Here's my motivation: Gunung Rinjani & Gunung Baru