Saturday, March 11, 2006
6:34 PM

the headache season

the headache season has not been ard for some time. recently, i've been having headaches on and off, like 4-5 times a week. The feeling of the throbbing blood vessels in your eyes, brain and neck is simply unbearable, and makes me feel like puking.

it's been making me feeling unwell recently, but is worsened by sch. I have to admit that I've been lucky to be taking 6 modules as relaxed as taking 4 mods, with blaw and finance being half-mods each. But, of cuz, it's not for nothing, I'll have to pia for my 4 papers at the end of the term. But now I'm so worried whether I can maintain my GPA, which hasn't been very satisfactory, but considered good enuf. And my number 1 worry has to be BGS. Dunno wad to say abt it. Perhaps, I shall bitch abt BGS after I complete my mods. I have A LOT to say. I shall juz make the best out of it first. I'm really being very optimistic. Research paper is due soon, paper's abstract due this friday, presentation either next or next next week. Nothing has been done - our hypotheses sux, our proposals were on the pass-fail line, zero data has been collected and nothing has been done to collect data. Somehow feel quite demoralised and want to give it up. There's just not enuf guidance and time to do. If we have a textbook, 2 booklets and other books from the lib to read for readings, how much time do I then have left each week to do the proj? I can't spend just 2 hours reading and understanding Harvard Business Cases, PhD's reports and research papers every week. To do all that, I'll probably need >4 hours.

Though I've been complaining abt trainings that clash with meetings, I seem glad to have these trainings to "escape" from work for a couple of hours each week, though all that running 7km, exercises and 'staircase to heaven' leaves me with yet less time to do BGS and other stuff. But, anyway, even with a little more time to do BGS, we still have no idea wad to do. But I really dun want a C for my BGS (the research paper is 30%!). Nono, no way...

Nowadays I can't seem to cry in front of myself. I need a shoulder to lean on.