Friday, December 30, 2005
2:52 PM

1-year old!

The year is soon coming to an end, and my blog juz turned 1-year old this month. Congrats to me on not abandoning my blog in its first year! I started my blog so late cuz I always have my own diary and din see a pt in maintaining a blog, let others read my "private" diaries and oso feared that pple may be offended by wad i wrote. Manz, and I really hate the HTML thingy cuz I'm such a tech-idiot. I still can rmb some friends dissuading me from having blog, stating that it's juz a fad, that it's a waste of time. I thot so initially, but gradually saw the value of having a blog. I have my own private diary, but a blog exists precisely because pple read it. Though I doubt many pple read my blog except for some of my close frens, at least I noe I read it. I actually enjoy reading my own blog, looking at the entries in the past year, and relive those times. And I agree with Jingwen, that a blog maintains our discipline to continually pen down your feelings, thoughts and incidents, as opposed to my diary, which has only 1 entry per year on the average. Muahaha..

When my blog was born, it was pink! Then, I kinda got sick of the colour (ok, I like pink, but I admit it can get quite irritating at times), so I changed the background to the one with the aurora from digitalblasphemy, then I changed the background again, to the picture I took at Tasik Kenyir, and recently, to the present one. My blog has nv been sophisticated-looking or extremely techie. I mean, look at me, how techie and artistic can I get. This is alr very good ok. At least it looks neat rite.

So far, my blog hasn't been very "private" or personal. Cuz I "hum", dun dare to offend pple, or maybe cuz I noe that negative feelings usually do not last. There are moments when I get so angry I want to tell the whole world abt it, but when the incident is over, I'll feel glad I din make a big fuss cuz that'll make me look like a petty fool, make me regret, hurt others' feelings or spoil a friendship (or, er, acquaintanceship). Nevertheless, i still complained and scolded a couple of times in my blog to vent the pent-up frustrations. My dear blog is not only my journal-cum-diary, it doubles up as my punching bag. I dun blog as often as tze, but definitely more often than wanling and sophie, with an average of like 1.7 entries per week. Haha...

Well, this has been a fairly different year from the past years. Had my first job after Prom last year, and then switched to another 2 jobs this year. Those were the times when I was "rich". Still rmb the shopping sprees with tze and shuying. Tink tze still rmbs once I bought a $60 jacket and a $130 watch, while she watched on, eye-wide. Then there was the backpacking-in-Thailand-turned-packaged-Trengganu-trip with 9 other gals, where we found paradise. Shortly after, it was the start of first sem, which was fairly short. Of cuz there were ups and downs as well - dreading the release of A level results, the relief upon receiving them, the unbearable awaiting of scholarships, the dilemma in the choosing of unis and courses, having to adjust to the new envt in uni, making do with superficial acquaintances in Uni, having to cope with jz having less time for me, etc.

Oh yes, I do miss JC life a lot, and I still boast of the slack, enriching, adventurous and fun times in JC to my friends. But those are moments for me to reminisce and remember only. Wad to do, 19 alr, someone turning 20 soon alr lo, oldest gal in 29th... Wah, imagine, after I turn 20, everything will pass by really quickly. Then, tada, I'll be 30. Erps.

I'm not sure if I have any new year resolutions. Haha... Erm...

1. Get even better grades than 1st sem. Haha... a little hard, but, yes, I muz jiayou!

2. Maintain my weight. Haha... i need to jog more often...

3. Be more motivated, less lazy. i shud stop slping so much! pple slp at 1, 2am, i slp at 11+... *guilty

4. Stay true to myself. yes, a facade is part of a person, but i need to be the less-self-conscious-myself more often...