Saturday, April 02, 2005
11:10 PM

Do you feel the same way?

Do you confide when u have troubles?

Do you ever feel like you have never-ending troubles?

Do you suffer from mood swings?

Do you realise that it's probably not mood swings?

Do you realise that there are some problems that can't be solved?

Do you feel that sometimes you want to share a problem,

But you are afraid

That others can't understand,

Or you don't know how to,

Or you just don't want to trouble others,

Or it's just something close to heart.

It can only pervade you.

That it had formed part of you,

Deep inside of you,

Probably stuck between the pancreas and the liver.

You just can't,

Just can't get it out...

How about solving the problem?

Confronting it?

Is it really that simple?

Have you ever tried confronting the problem and made things worse,

Made yourself miserable and more alone than ever?

Do you have any problems that remains unsolved for years,

I mean like decades?

Like a whole life?

Have you feel misunderstood,

Being piled upon by tonnes of burden,

Can't breathe,

Can't even complain,

Can't escape?

Thought that you have gone through the toughest battle against yourself,

But the problems persist.

Do you feel that you just need to be understood?

To be empathised with?

Do you feel that you can't have things the way you want them to be?

Do you feel that you have to suffer for the years to come?

That you will be blamed for anything bad to come?

Any inability, any flaw, any mistake, anything neglected?

(And that's not "thinking too much" because it's really going to happen?)

(Because what happened all your life had foreshadowed that?)

Do you feel the same way?

Or am I the only one?